Above water
I thought it would be polite just to let you know we are all still here. Life is hectic and I'd love to say "I wish someone warned me". But I think they all tried. Why is it no matter wether it is your first baby or third you always think to yourself life was easier when...
Don't get me wrong, I love Addie and the boys to death and I wouldn't change anything for the world. But restless nights and getting to know and incorporate a baby into your life is always hard. Somedays I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water... or breastmilk for that matter. Scheduling with three is much harder than one. As with one you could feed whenever the wind blew, but now I can't start a feed at 3:05pm because I know darn well she won't be done by 3:15pm when I have to leave to go pick up Joseph. I feel for Addie already as the third child as her schedule has to more fit with ours than ours with her. It is a good thing she has been a pretty easy going and adjustable baby.
However, I must say most people say that women have a form of amnesia about labour and delivery. It is biophysical, it has to be or no one would ever do it again. Or would they? I definately don't think I have amnesia about that part of Motherhood, as it is something I will never forget about. But I think for me my amnesia has always been in the area of sleepless nights, nasty blow out poops, and the first six weeks home. I always forget what a struggle it can be.
I guess in a way this is another part of knowing Addie is our last child that is bittersweet. I most definately do not want to wish any of these sweet baby days away since I will never have them again. But in the back of my mind I just so wish I could feel a little more human and a little less frazzled and showered. I somedays just wish I could function as myself a bit better. But I just need to let it go as it is part and parcel of babyhood.
Three and half weeks into life with three kids, all I can say is it's busy.
Don't get me wrong, I love Addie and the boys to death and I wouldn't change anything for the world. But restless nights and getting to know and incorporate a baby into your life is always hard. Somedays I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water... or breastmilk for that matter. Scheduling with three is much harder than one. As with one you could feed whenever the wind blew, but now I can't start a feed at 3:05pm because I know darn well she won't be done by 3:15pm when I have to leave to go pick up Joseph. I feel for Addie already as the third child as her schedule has to more fit with ours than ours with her. It is a good thing she has been a pretty easy going and adjustable baby.
However, I must say most people say that women have a form of amnesia about labour and delivery. It is biophysical, it has to be or no one would ever do it again. Or would they? I definately don't think I have amnesia about that part of Motherhood, as it is something I will never forget about. But I think for me my amnesia has always been in the area of sleepless nights, nasty blow out poops, and the first six weeks home. I always forget what a struggle it can be.
I guess in a way this is another part of knowing Addie is our last child that is bittersweet. I most definately do not want to wish any of these sweet baby days away since I will never have them again. But in the back of my mind I just so wish I could feel a little more human and a little less frazzled and showered. I somedays just wish I could function as myself a bit better. But I just need to let it go as it is part and parcel of babyhood.
Three and half weeks into life with three kids, all I can say is it's busy.
posted by Jessica @ 1:23 PM
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